memory

Holiday.
Titech entrance exam today.

Yesterday the campus was already in exam atmosphere. Information tents near the main gate, people spreading booklet about housing, and notice to leave campus by 9.00 pm.
It slightly brought me back to four years ago when university entrance exam (we called it UMPTN --national uni entrance exam) was one of the things in my mind mostly. I could remember the feeling of our anxiety --choosing uni, doing try out. It was indeed one of the big things at that time.

One of other big things in my life was in my first few months in Japan --adapting to new life, new campus, new friends, even maybe new point of view. It was somewhat fun, but also tough. Something that I guess now has been transformed to new challenge, giving something different, and leaving special memories.

I think I have good memory of feeling. I write things down on my diary (or sometimes just in my mind) --mostly the date and thing happened, what I thought and felt, that when I read it back, the feeling accompanying it revealed.

----from the sceptic dictionary

1. Memories are constructions made in accordance with present needs, desires, influences, etc.
2. Memories are often accompanied by feelings and emotions.
3. Memory usually involves awareness of the memory. [Schacter 1996]

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Maybe our global present need is to keep walking as the world always forces us to.
Maybe what does matter is to manage the memory to also fulfill the need.

I sometimes wake my memories up by reading my previous notes, talking, or writing about it.
Because I found that memories --sometimes memories of having passed even tougher time, always brought the feelings and emotions back to make me hold on.