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Udah nulis panjang2 ilang semua. Sampai jumpa kapan2 deh :p

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bandung

I never feel like home there...
because it is indeed my real home
-the true one.

Happy birthday to my beloved papay -the best father I ever had in my life.
thank you very much for always having a faith on me -in everything I do.
Cannot imagine how my life is gonna be without you -and of course, mum :)

...semoga sehat selalu, dilimpahi kebahagiaan, ketenangan, dan selalu dalam lindungan Allah SWT.

...amin.

future plan

What is your plan in the future -or in the near future, after going back from Japan?
--that's kind of a standard question I often heard lately -almost from everybody.

Actually I am pretty sure about what I am going to do, but I sometimes prefer people to see me unplanned as the comments are sometimes surprising.

And here is one of the interesting replies when I was telling a friend honestly about my thought:
"How old are you?" --in an amazed sight *hope I didn't misinterpret*
Hope that question referred to something good that she saw in me.

But thank you anyway, I learnt a lot from our talks tonight. And it did helps me to have stronger will. :)

さぁ。。。
諦めることは絶対ダメですよね。

utsunomiya

I went to Tochigi this weekend, with my YSEP fellows and my YSEP professors, to have one night homestay with a Japanese family in Utsunomiya city. Utsunomiya was awesome. It doesn't look like Japan *at least Japan where I live now*. It is really closed to the nature: mountain, lake, hills, and even farm! And the people -somehow- look happier than people in Tokyo.

My hostfamily seemed to like nature a lot -as I enjoyed it very much too. We went to the farm, located 1030m high from the sea level. We were freezing -but then I found that having soft cream in 5 degree Celcius could throw your influenza away. *but I don't recommend you to try this anyway!*

Apart from that, the stay with my hostfamily was perfect. What a nice family. We talked a lot of things -until one o'clock in the morning and spent Sunday morning walking out to the green park.

It was really an enriching activity, both in cultural understanding and self understanding :p
Many thanks to my host family -Yoshi san and Yuki san, Utsunomiya no Hippo family club and Sato sensei! Now I arrived home with a bunch of things -and thoughts.

色々お世話になりまして、ありがとうございました。

lose?

-----
I am in Japan now!
in mission on exploring the new world of mine
the world with aliens that later I would call friends
the world with places that later I would consider as home
-----

I remember writing those words last year.. at the early moment of my stay in Japan.
and when I realized the truth in those words.. -the existence of friends and home here
it is almost four months to the end.

Is it true that you never know how precious the things surround you,
until comes the time when you have to lose it?

;)
never know.
[but my mom said that it is the matter about how you enjoy your life]

[five things]

...relax
...focus
...set the goal
...think that you can
...never give up





* pic from my Aikido training.

angklung

What a nice weekend I had.

I went to Chiba, a city in a prefecture northern Tokyo, to watch an angklung team in Chiba having a rehearsal. Amazing, that the motors of this angklung team are Japanese people --who indeed seem to love Indonesia very much: ability in speaking Bahasa Indonesia, good knowledge about Indonesian culture, and Indonesian sytle interior in the team president's house! Thanks to Teh Nina, who introduced me to Ibu Kawanami :)

I felt very welcomed.
By their generousity, and also by a sudden request from the conductor to teach them how to vibrate the angklung ;) and she kept asking my comment after each song!
Well, once again, never imagined that I myself did such things! :d
It was really fun to get into such community and I was very pleased also knowing that there are foreigners who love our angklung that much! (Go my friends in KPA3, expand the sound of angklung more, -of course after paying our debt :p )

Click here to see Angklung chiba performances last concert.

***

Music is a universal language. We may not communicate by the same language to people next to us, but music can be such a bridge. See here, when international students in Titech shared themselves through the music in last autumn welcoming party. So, when words fail to explain your self, why don't you try to use the music? ;) --a bunch of thanks to my Indonesian fellows in Titech.

My life walked in really slow pace lately. I need great driving force to finish my internship report -still writing till now, but blogging is much easier :p My gabor is still stuck, I need to debug it -but it seems that other stuffs are more interesting to do, such as trying aikido which finally hurts me :d

Meanwhile, it seems that earthquake starts to occur everywhere. In Indonesia: 9-Richter scale in Aceh, 8-Richter scale in Nias, also 5-Richter scale Bandung. and here in Japan: 7-Richter scale a month ago in Fukuoka, and 6-Richter scale near Tokyo -that once again became my effective alarm in the morning. And other countless natural disasters. May Allah always protect us.

* Pic added after a performance in summer.

the change

titech on late december 2004


titech on early april 2005

Things DO change, as the time goes by

And I'm still here on my stagnancy
knitting the things that later I will call as memories

home sweet home

Twenty-one-hour-journey from Tokyo to Fukuoka -a holiday that I finally had after one month being trapped in a small box in the old building in Tokyo :p

I'm home now. After five years!
Home?
Yup, such a place that I have missed in these six months.
A place that I have been looking for just to bring my spirit back after a long walk.

-desiree-

Hope to be able, again, to be back to a place that I call home.

my family in the neighborhood

my high school yard!

お父さん、お母さん、亮ちゃん、裕美佳ちゃん、親切に私を重松家に受け入れてくれて
まことにどうもありがとうございました。